Expectations
The Wood Thrush behind the house is just starting up her evening repertoire before she nests for the night. Cool breeze is drifting in through the windows, I cannot believe it is June! I went for a lunchtime walk today wearing a sweater. It has been a crazy Spring, with temperatures barely making out of the seventies. I swear there is a giant umbrella over North Carolina that keeps the scorching rays away.
May also brought exhaustion. I had a hard time getting through each day, then spent 10-12 hours in bed, refreshing sleep still eluding me. Something was up; but it was not me.
I have been reading spiritual blogs heralding the expansion of consciousness into 4D and 5D living. Changes, unseen, untouchable, are happening right now and everywhere. What does that mean? Waking in molasses most of the days, to me it seemed that even 3D living was slipping out of my reach. Then on the first day of June something broke open. Yet another perceived betrayal finally pushed me over the edge. It was painful, but I came out of the other end with a new freedom. This is one of my biggest lessons so far: learning to be free from laying expectations on others. And letting people live free from my expectations. A huge shift.
The significance of this resonates deeply with me, this great lesson that I needed to assimilate. I can now see clearly how people lined up around me to consistently “fail” my expectations. All according to plans!
I love math, so here is an easy formula to summarize:
Happiness = satisfaction ÷ desire
No desire does not mean not having preferences. It means to be at peace with all outcomes. No desire also means dividing by zero, resulting in infinite happiness. Which, I venture to guess, is not possible in a human form.
